Parting

I’m sitting alone

On my friends couch

The clock reads 5am

I’m eating room temperature pizza

And staring in to the lack of light

His mom’s asleep in the room

Directly to my left

I’m floating off in to the distance

With every choking breath

“Where did I go wrong?”

Repeats in the rear of my head

I sunk my teeth in deep

At the base of the back of your neck

I felt the hook latch

And the blood trickle out

The salt of your neckline

Tainted with rust

As I sucked away your doubts

I hope whoever loves you next

Loves you like you don’t deserve

Even rats get to taste the cheese

Before the feel the snap

I’m thinking about two people

And neither of them are you

All we did was suffer the pain

That we were both afraid to lose.

*Originally written on 4.23.19